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Fears of an Almost Fat Girl

First and foremost, let me put this initial disclaimer here. I’ve never been obese or fat the way society sees fat and obese, but a person can be fat for their body, their frame. Hence, my title of “Almost” Fat Girl. Secondly, many of the fears expressed in this post may seem irrational. I get that. Fears are almost always irrational. Yet, I feel compelled to share because someone could be helped by my words. That said…read on. 

Last week, I visited my doctor to look into the increasing hip pain I had been having the last couple of months. I’ve dealt with hip issues over the course of the last couple of years, but it was becoming beyond manageable. After a MRI, my diagnosis was a contusion in the gluteal muscles (basically a literal pain in the ass…a deep one). She ordered steroids and a full week off all physical activity, especially exercise. Even though I remained composed and told her okay, I was mentally freaking out on two levels.

First off, exercise is my career. I teach ten various fitness/yoga classes per week. Plus standing and demonstrating for my personal clients. What am I going to do?!?! After a bit of calming down, I worked everything out. My students and clients are fine, and I’m following doctor orders. Yet, the bigger, more internal freak out continued.

How am I not going to exercise for an entire week?!?! Even on vacations, I make time to exercise. For the past six years, exercise has become everything to me: my stress reliever, my therapy, my fun … you name it, exercise filtered into every part of my life. Being active makes me happy; it helps me be happy in every part of my life. Then, I thought of the food. Granted, my ways of eating have drastically changed for the better over the last nine years, but exercise also helps me keep off the indulgences (wine and chocolate, anyone?) and lets me have gigantic, teenage portions (I really love food!).

Mentally, I started to see myself become that girl again. The one from 2008 where I was 50 pounds heavier and thought I still looked “hot”. The one who pretended to be okay with wearing a size 12 jeans, even though those were the biggest she had ever worn. The girl who put everyone else before her and rarely took the time to take care of herself. The one in the midst of depression and on the verge of suicide. That girl does not exist any longer, but I saw her crystal clear, and I feared her reappearance.

The girl I feared. Me in 2008

The girl I feared. Me in 2008

Now, can all this happen in one week? No, and that is why fears are irrational. Yet, there comes a time everyone has to face their fears, especially the ones about themselves. In the back of my mind, despite all my knowledge, my habit and lifestyle changes, and rationality, I had a fear of becoming that almost fat girl again. I did not realize it until this week. That fear was something I had to face and to let go of because in a sense, the fear had control over me without me even acknowledging it. That fear way back in the dark recesses of my mind kept me trapped in a thought I could never rest. The thought that I could not let go and enjoy down time. Even the thought and incapability to see myself the way I want to see myself: healthy, happy, fit, vibrant. That single fear kept my heart a bit closed and my soul’s wings still clipped.

Open your heart, and let your soul fly.

Open your heart, and let your soul fly.

So, I will enjoy the rest of this week, resting, letting go, smiling. I know I am not that almost fat girl any longer. I know she will not return. I will plan my healthy meals and savor them, eating mindfully. I will look forward to reconnecting with my students and clients and my time on the yoga mat. I will be bold in recognizing that I had that fear and letting it go.

Be bold in facing your fears…even the ones you may not even realize you had.

Renewal Project 2015 February Update

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February 2015 Update

I had truly intended to update right around the middle of the month, but one thing had led to another (including forgetting to take pictures!), and here I am posting at an almost at 8 week interval. But hey, that’s Life, right?!?! It’s all good. I’m truly excited to share the updates in the 5 priority areas of my life!

Physical: This will be the most visible to everyone, and to me, if my physical feeling and appearance is improving, then that means I am improving everywhere. I know some will say the physical is only the physical, but I know if I let myself go, my mental state is not good. Not everyone is that way, but I believe most of us are.                                         Below are my stat and photo comparisons:

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For two months, all I focused on was tight nutrition, hydration, and adding back in high impact cardio on my low impact teaching days (a.k.a, yoga all day long days)

Spiritual: I have delved into my daily devotionals and meditation practice to really give peace into my soul. I also started attending the church I adore, and officially joined as a member in late January. Even though spiritual peace is a personal journey, it is wonderful to begin to be involved in a spiritual community once again. The turmoil I was having the last half of 2014 is easing as I am finding my inner joy once again.

Business: With my classes and clients still growing, I dove into several trainings and projects to help me revive my Beachbody business. Let’s just say, stay tuned. I have re-developed my hunger and love for this company and how grateful I am to be a part of it.

Interests: The biggest factor in renewing this aspect of my life is making time for my creative needs. I am a creative person…one who creates on several different mediums and in different ways. I was not allowing myself time for it, and overwhelming myself with the “must dos”. By making time for my interests, my spirit is renewed to do all things better. My craving for running and writing has started to come back like a hunger after a crazy hard workout! This alone leaves me excited.

Relationships: This has been the hardest, mainly because admittedly, I lost trust and faith in people. I have started rebuilding that trust and faith I have in people…all people, close and not. I have started focusing on the relationships closest to me. Rebuilding relationships with my children, with my PIC, and with my closest friends. Whether I feel it or not, these people are in my corner always, and placing trust and faith in them will change the world for them and for me.

I hope 2015 has started off well for you, and you have seen progress in your life as well. I do know you and, only you, are the only one who can change your life. You have everything you want in life, you just have to refocus your mind and really LIVE your life! Thank you for joining me on this personal journey of mine, and as always, feel free to reach out if you need a hand along the way.