I heart yoga. If you’ve been following me for any amount of time, you’ll see more yoga posts on my social media feeds than any other type of exercise posts. Lately, I’ve been combining my love of popular music with my love of yoga. Below is my latest favorite song by Estelle in a Warrior Flow. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did creating it!
First and foremost, let me put this initial disclaimer here. I’ve never been obese or fat the way society sees fat and obese, but a person can be fat for their body, their frame. Hence, my title of “Almost” Fat Girl. Secondly, many of the fears expressed in this post may seem irrational. I get that. Fears are almost always irrational. Yet, I feel compelled to share because someone could be helped by my words. That said…read on.
Last week, I visited my doctor to look into the increasing hip pain I had been having the last couple of months. I’ve dealt with hip issues over the course of the last couple of years, but it was becoming beyond manageable. After a MRI, my diagnosis was a contusion in the gluteal muscles (basically a literal pain in the ass…a deep one). She ordered steroids and a full week off all physical activity, especially exercise. Even though I remained composed and told her okay, I was mentally freaking out on two levels.
First off, exercise is my career. I teach ten various fitness/yoga classes per week. Plus standing and demonstrating for my personal clients. What am I going to do?!?! After a bit of calming down, I worked everything out. My students and clients are fine, and I’m following doctor orders. Yet, the bigger, more internal freak out continued.
How am I not going to exercise for an entire week?!?! Even on vacations, I make time to exercise. For the past six years, exercise has become everything to me: my stress reliever, my therapy, my fun … you name it, exercise filtered into every part of my life. Being active makes me happy; it helps me be happy in every part of my life. Then, I thought of the food. Granted, my ways of eating have drastically changed for the better over the last nine years, but exercise also helps me keep off the indulgences (wine and chocolate, anyone?) and lets me have gigantic, teenage portions (I really love food!).
Mentally, I started to see myself become that girl again. The one from 2008 where I was 50 pounds heavier and thought I still looked “hot”. The one who pretended to be okay with wearing a size 12 jeans, even though those were the biggest she had ever worn. The girl who put everyone else before her and rarely took the time to take care of herself. The one in the midst of depression and on the verge of suicide. That girl does not exist any longer, but I saw her crystal clear, and I feared her reappearance.
Now, can all this happen in one week? No, and that is why fears are irrational. Yet, there comes a time everyone has to face their fears, especially the ones about themselves. In the back of my mind, despite all my knowledge, my habit and lifestyle changes, and rationality, I had a fear of becoming that almost fat girl again. I did not realize it until this week. That fear was something I had to face and to let go of because in a sense, the fear had control over me without me even acknowledging it. That fear way back in the dark recesses of my mind kept me trapped in a thought I could never rest. The thought that I could not let go and enjoy down time. Even the thought and incapability to see myself the way I want to see myself: healthy, happy, fit, vibrant. That single fear kept my heart a bit closed and my soul’s wings still clipped.
So, I will enjoy the rest of this week, resting, letting go, smiling. I know I am not that almost fat girl any longer. I know she will not return. I will plan my healthy meals and savor them, eating mindfully. I will look forward to reconnecting with my students and clients and my time on the yoga mat. I will be bold in recognizing that I had that fear and letting it go.
Be bold in facing your fears…even the ones you may not even realize you had.
Today, I’d like to share 5 little tips about mindful eating. Now, you may be asking “What is mindful eating?” or “How does mindful eating compare to all the other ways of eating?” (Paleo, clean, etc.).
Mindful eating is all about being aware of what you eat, how you eat, and how all of it effects your mind and body. Then, once you become mindful about your eating, your awareness leads you to make better nutritional choices for your body. Below is a visual tool I made to help you learn these simple tips.
If you like this tool, head over to my Pinterest for boards full of tools to use to help you on your journey.
February 2015 Update
I had truly intended to update right around the middle of the month, but one thing had led to another (including forgetting to take pictures!), and here I am posting at an almost at 8 week interval. But hey, that’s Life, right?!?! It’s all good. I’m truly excited to share the updates in the 5 priority areas of my life!
Physical: This will be the most visible to everyone, and to me, if my physical feeling and appearance is improving, then that means I am improving everywhere. I know some will say the physical is only the physical, but I know if I let myself go, my mental state is not good. Not everyone is that way, but I believe most of us are. Below are my stat and photo comparisons:
For two months, all I focused on was tight nutrition, hydration, and adding back in high impact cardio on my low impact teaching days (a.k.a, yoga all day long days)
Spiritual: I have delved into my daily devotionals and meditation practice to really give peace into my soul. I also started attending the church I adore, and officially joined as a member in late January. Even though spiritual peace is a personal journey, it is wonderful to begin to be involved in a spiritual community once again. The turmoil I was having the last half of 2014 is easing as I am finding my inner joy once again.
Business: With my classes and clients still growing, I dove into several trainings and projects to help me revive my Beachbody business. Let’s just say, stay tuned. I have re-developed my hunger and love for this company and how grateful I am to be a part of it.
Interests: The biggest factor in renewing this aspect of my life is making time for my creative needs. I am a creative person…one who creates on several different mediums and in different ways. I was not allowing myself time for it, and overwhelming myself with the “must dos”. By making time for my interests, my spirit is renewed to do all things better. My craving for running and writing has started to come back like a hunger after a crazy hard workout! This alone leaves me excited.
Relationships: This has been the hardest, mainly because admittedly, I lost trust and faith in people. I have started rebuilding that trust and faith I have in people…all people, close and not. I have started focusing on the relationships closest to me. Rebuilding relationships with my children, with my PIC, and with my closest friends. Whether I feel it or not, these people are in my corner always, and placing trust and faith in them will change the world for them and for me.
I hope 2015 has started off well for you, and you have seen progress in your life as well. I do know you and, only you, are the only one who can change your life. You have everything you want in life, you just have to refocus your mind and really LIVE your life! Thank you for joining me on this personal journey of mine, and as always, feel free to reach out if you need a hand along the way.
At the beginning of the year, I launched a personal project called Renewal Project 2015. After a year that took me for a whirl in all aspects of my life, I felt I needed to renew myself to a state where I felt like me again and to a better me. This involved deep commitment to renewing certain aspects of my life. Here are the areas of my life I felt needed renewal and how I was feeling at the end of 2014.
Physical: Despite being a personal trainer and a healthy lifestyle coach, I had put everyone else’s health above my own. As my clients, students, and challengers were getting healthier and more fit, I suffered from a hip injury, making running and most cardio activity painful, and made excuses regarding exercise and my nutrition to where I had lost some of my leanness and put on 10 extra pounds and 10 extra overall inches.
Spiritual: Despite constant personal development through various books, audio, and other sources, I felt my spirit was in turmoil. I had been visiting a church I loved, but did not go for several months. I felt beat down in my spirit while struggling with some extremely personal issues all while trying my damnedest to remain positive and upbeat to the outside world.
Business: Despite my training and teaching locally growing, I let my Beachbody business fall apart. This hurt the worst because Beachbody is the reason I am in the field I am in now. Beachbody is a core reason I am the person I am now. Beachbody has led me to people, opportunities, and experiences I would have never had without it. I truly love the company I am aligned with, and I was pushing it to the wayside.
Interests: Over the last year, I had pushed interests aside. I stopped writing regularly (as you noticed if you have followed my blog for some time). I stopped creating…crafts, photography, designing, you name it. Running, partially due to injury, had become a chore instead of my desire.
Relationships: I am a person who deeply believes humans need and innately desire connection. Over the last year, I had lost or pushed away many friends and family. True colors of people I thought I knew were revealed. I received a blunt, long lesson in conditional/unconditional love and the human flaws of judgement, stubbornness, and resentment. This lesson started to make me jaded and question my true quality of trusting everyone. Now, I know I am far from perfect, but I am aware and have been working to learn and accept my flaws. But this arena of my life was now in a whole new light.
Now, in 2015, I am focusing intensively on these 5 areas in my life. Every 4-6 weeks, I will be posting my personal updates for you to follow along if you wish. Stay tuned tomorrow as I reveal the changes I have made and the progress results from the first 6 weeks of Renewal Project 2015.
I love stir fry. Seriously, it’s simple, quick, and versatile. This is one I whipped up last week.
Pepper Steak Stir Fry
- 1 – medium-sized skirt or flank steak
- Teriyaki sauce
- Ginger (ground or fresh, I used fresh)
- Coarse ground black pepper
- Garlic (1 clove fresh or garlic powder, I used fresh garlic)
- Olive oil or coconut oil (I used olive oil, about 1 tbsp.)
- 2 tablespoons water
- Low-sodium soy sauce or Bragg’s Liquid Aminos
- 2 bags frozen stir fry vegetables
I like to marinade my meat before I start the stir fry to let the flavor really soak in.
- 1 hour before cook time; place steak into airtight container, season with minced garlic clove, grated ginger, and black pepper. Pour 2-4 tablespoons teriyaki sauce over seasoned steak, and seal with lid. Place in refrigerator for about an hour.
- At cook time: remove steak from refrigerator, place in a warm skillet pour marinade mixture over steak, and sear on each side for about 5 minutes. Remove from skillet and place on cutting board to rest.
- Drizzle olive oil in pan. (One circle around the pan should do it.) Pour vegetables into skillet, add water, and let steam for 2 minutes.
- Add soy sauce, teriyaki sauce and more ginger. (I swirled the soy sauce bottle around the pan once as well as the teriyaki sauce.)
- Stir vegetables to coat with seasonings.
- While the vegetables are steaming for about 3 more minutes, slice the steak into thin strips. The meat should be at a medium-rare to medium. Cross cut the steak strips to make “cubes”. Toss into pan with vegetables.
- Stir steak and vegetables together until steak is browned on all sides.
- Serve immediately.
Options: Serve over brown rice (as shown in picture), over rice noodles, quinoa pasta or over mashed sweet potatoes. It’s pretty awesome by itself too!
Please let me know if you try this quick and easy meal, what you think of it, and if you made any changes to it.
I’ve known Christy since before high school, and we reconnected a couple of years ago on social media. I’ve seen her progress continue, all because of her amazing dedication to her goal!
1. Why did you decide to lose weight/change your lifestyle? (Any and all
In August 2013, I decided I wanted more out of life. I wanted to feel better, have more energy and have more confidence in myself. I was tired of coming home after work everyday and taking a nap.
2. What exercise did you do? (List everything)
I started out walking in September. I added a community ed exercise class (it included step aerobics, kick boxing and strength training) in October. I joined a gym in November that offers body pump and Zumba.
3. How did you change your eating habits?
I use my fitness pal to track my calorie intake. I cut out soda’s all together. I only eat red meat every once in awhile. I either eat baked tilapia or chicken and sliced turkey. I have increased my vegetable and fruit intake. I eat breakfast now and I have added snacks to my day.
4. Did you use any nutritional supplements?
The only thing that I have used is Spark. I started using that about two months ago.
5. Did you have support? (Group, friend, online community, etc.)
Yes, all of my family and friends have been very supportive. I also follow many pages on FB.
6. What do you feel is the top thing you’ve gotten out of your journey?
Not to give up on your dream because of a few unhealthy decisions or days.
7. What is your next goal?
I still have a ways to go so I just want to keep up my steady pace and boost my strength training as I go.
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